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Dreamless sleep please...

Two taunting forms stand
one of night…so vacant - - black
His cruelties aware me
to make known
I am not welcome in this dream

I keep having nightmares...seriously scarry nightmares.

I haven't had them this bad sense I was a little kid.

I've never slept well, I wasn't an easy kid to have...I'd go to bed fine but I was so scared of the dark I had a night light till I was 9, I still have my teddy and can't sleep without him in the room...I'm 20...but the thing is I wasn't afaraid of the dark though I was afraid of what would come out of it.

I used to have re-occurring bad dreams and nightmares every single night they were so bad I refused to go to sleep. In the end my parents had to give me Karvol...this medicine you put on your pjs when you've got a cold...as it was the only thing that made me drowsy enough to sleep.  My parents had to get me a sleeping bag so I could come into their room when I'd wake up because I couldn't handle being alone. When I was about 10 these dreams slowly went away but I'd still have a bad dream like anyone once in a while (like anyone) and that's how it went. When my Dad passed away the dreams came back but a BIZILLON times worse I had them for around a year then again they went away.

But now they're back...and it's fucking terrofying

I'm 20 goddam years old...I can not be having stupid nightmares that make me afraid to go to sleep.

It is really horrible...

It's getting to the point I have to stay up so late that I'm so exhausted I can't physically keep my eyes open jsut to get to sleep...I just wish it would stop i's turning me into my 6 year old self....I can't deal


Cos I corrupt you...

C is for....:D

and to make up for it my fave episode of Recess


I have so much friggin' work to do this week!

Why dear Jesus did all my modules decide to set coursework due dates in the same week!

Frickin' frack!

Work I have due this week:

-One 800 word "Annie Hall" Reveiw
-Two 3 minute (aka 3 page) Screen plays
-One 2000 word essay on Aueter Theory including 10 Referances
-One 2000 word reveiw on "Blood Wedding" including 15 Referances
-Preperation for oral Tech. Evaluation

Plus I have a lot of my screen writting to type up, notes to write out from my classes...AND after tomorrow I'll have another 800 word reveiw on another film!


Those feckers!

Good news is I have one of my screen plays completed one half way done, I'm doing my "Annie Hall" essay now, which means I'll have 4 days to get the other essays finished...phew...

New Year is gonna suck though...I'll have 3 times as much work to do because I'll be starting all my written tech. work

Yeah do Art subjects...you pretend to be a tree all day and watch movies....HA!


B'ah Humbug!

Yonked meme...Collapse )
Pizza and guitar hero world tour

How F***in' HOT is Amanda Palmer?

About THAT fucking hot!!!

*lust lust lust*


Thank you PCOS...*gumble* I have the most killer cramps today...they made cry I was in so much pain...Emuhs going to the doctor tomorrow....

as a distraction I have stolen thisCollapse ) from mysticchocolate rawr!

My veiws on prop 8

Why I belive in the cause of NO to prop 8...

How cold is it in my room?

So cold it took me 3 hours to get warm enough to sleep and even then I woke up twice durring the night shivering with cold despite being under:

-a 13.5 tog double duvet
-a 7.5 tog single duvet
-a fleecy T.V/lounge blanket
-my mudhens hood OVER my fleecy PJs

I am so frickin' cold!
I bet it's warmer outside

stupid crappy house...